I was born to a 17 year old teenage mother and was raised as a fatherless child. Living with grandparents until the age of 7, was the only shadow of normalcy that I ever recall. My grandmother passed away and from then on was a life full of chaos, drug and alcohol abuse, sexual abuse, neglect, poverty, and constant uncertainty. By my early teen years with no guidance or structure I was in rebellion and a real unsafe world of danger. I was looking for love and attention anywhere I could find it.
By 15 I was approached to be a “model” and told how pretty and smart I was. I was offered money and trickery and told I could go far in modeling, and that “Everyone would love me”. All lies of the enemy and a “progression” of things to come… Beauty contests, bikini contests, and finally trafficked through a tanning salon into the world of dancing just out of high school. I was drinking a lot and partying trying to cope with it all. Then I met my first husband, who was a male dancer. I had a baby on the way by age nineteen. By 21 he was gone, leaving me with a 1-year-old baby, as he headed for prison for drug trafficking I continued to dance for a total of seven and a half years throughout the Midwest. My life was empty and full of sadness and low self worth. At 21 years of age I had been through many dark life experiences and had made nothing but poor decisions. I kept working the next 3 years in total survival mode, now a single mother. I felt trapped, in a money trap, with no education, and nowhere to turn. I no longer enjoyed “ the Glamour”, the lights, the parties, and the lies, and especially not the men. I was “Broken”!
Then in January of 1994, I had just turned 24 and something amazing and miraculous happened… Someone invited me to church! The first time I went I was nervous and felt like I didn’t belong… but I felt something. The pastor gave an alter call and I wanted to move, but I listened to the lie of the enemy telling me you can’t change, you have to go to work, you’ve done to much wrong… you’ve been to bad! I came back the following Sunday and felt something again. The strong and awesome presence of the Holy Spirit, rushing like ocean waves, tears were falling and I went straight for the alter! That day I gave my life to Jesus Christ at Sheffield Family Life Center in Kansas City under the ministry of Dr. George Westlake Jr., the most awesome man of God I have ever known. My life has never been the same! Jesus completely delivered me from a lifestyle of deception and saved me from myself! I was transformed into a new creation in Christ.